happened to read through an old article earlier on ~
thinking back , I feel so blessed to have a caring husband and supportive family around me .. actually, I had been through a minor post-natal depression straight after lucas's birth ~ during the first week of my confinement , I didn't have appetite for any food , I had difficulty in sleeping even though I knew I was really tired (did not sleep for 3 solid days before the help of sleeping pills), I had difficulty in concentrating , I felt withdrawn and helpless , negative thoughts started to grow towards my husband and baby and worst all of , I started to think of suicide plan .. I knew my family was hurted seeing me reacting this way , however I just wouldn't help it ~ everything was like out of control .. I wouldn't control my mind at all .. my mom asked me to think positive (she also told me I should not be afraid nor stress at all , cos I have my husband and family catering to my every needs) .. every night (during that period), she will chat and crack jokes with me till dawn , massaging and patting my back to help smoothen my sleep .. after one week or so , my mood went back to normal ~ able to sleep well , eat and smile more .. for all I know , nothing in this world is more important than my family .. therefore , I cherish my family very much (especially my hubby and mom)