dear readers , I am feeling much more better today ~ Lucas's doctor informed me that he can be able to discharge very soon .. and of course , I am adapting much more better to the tremendous change of my life now .. at least , I do not think so much about him anymore .. like I said , let time wash away my sorrow and pain .. meanwhile , my brother will be returning back to singapore very soon , flight had already been confirmed on the 24th of January ~ well , I have so much to tell .. I believe little Lucas is also looking forward to this uncle of his .. and our Chinese New Year celebration .. alright , basically I have nothing left now , except for lucas , my family and friends ~ facing and battling with me the toughest journey in my life ..