This entry will be alarming. My true confess for 2010.

Today I had an urge for suicide.

I was about to say good-bye to my family & friends.

Luckily, Bernard was there for me. In fact, he pampers me like a queen everyday.

I do not wish to illustrate too much regarding my personal stuff here. Actually, nothing went wrong. I am just having a hard time coping myself emotionally. For nothing, I feel very very depressed. No one can understand that terrible feeling I often have.

I really hate myself for feeling this way.

Don't worry, I am feeling much better for now. I really wish that I can get well soon.